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My Prayer...right now.

Psalm 119:116 Sustain me according to your promise, and I will live; do not let my hopes be dashed. 

Psalm 25:2 in you I trust, O my God. Do not let me be put to shame, nor let my enemies triumph over me. 

Psalm 25:20 Guard my life and rescue me; let me not be put to shame, for I take refuge in you. 

• Psalm 31:1 For the director of music. A psalm of David. In you, O LORD, I have taken refuge; let me never be put to shame; deliver me in your righteousness

   

  Psalm 71:1 In you, O LORD, I have taken refuge; let me never be put to shame 

   

  Psalm 86:2 Guard my life, for I am devoted to you. You are my God; save your servant who trusts in you.

   
  Psalm 91:2 I will say of the LORD, "He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust.
   
  Psalm 143:8 Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you. Show me the way I should go, for to you I lift up my soul.

   

  Philippians 1:20 I eagerly expect and hope that I will in no way be ashamed, but will have sufficient courage so that now as always Christ will be exalted in my body, whether by life or by death. 

   

  Psalm 54:4 Surely God is my help; the Lord is the one who sustains me.

A Prayer.

MercyMe - Word Of God Speak Lyrics


Word of God speak
Would You pour down like rain
Washing my eyes to see
Your majesty
To be still and know
That You're in this place
Please let me stay and rest
In Your holiness
Word of God speak

I'm finding myself in the midst of You
Beyond the music, beyond the noise
All that I need is to be with You
And in the quiet hear Your voice

Lonely

content,yes, but its like... I'm a kid and i have my "basic" color crayons, and I KNOW there are the "special" colors on a shelf I can't reach, and others have the special crayons. they got them by just asking the teacher, and i'm asking but the teacher isn't' hearing me

my picture is ok with what i've got, but could be even better with the other crayons

mediocre vs great

 

it seems i'm always pouring out , but never getting poured INTO.Yes,I go to church. up to 4 times a week. I learn lots. but... I'm dry,cracking,burnt.

 

I know HE is the sufficient one. BUT I'm longing for some  one LOCAL to (spiritually) tell me when i have broccoli in my teeth, for example.

 i just want some one to pray with, some one involved , seeing my life at a different view but thru the spirit

 

 

 

 

Guidance and dance...part of romance!

• First off, I love you. Happy Valentines, Sweet Lover of my soul!
• Second...I almost hate to ask...can I have more of those "HE REALLY REALLY REALLY LOVES...ME?!!!!?????!!!!!" moments? Please??? I know they are there...and that me being human sometimes *more often than not* I miss them. Make me more sensitive to your spirit. Your "sweet nothings",your guidance, your warnings...everything. 
• I know you love me ...in my head. I love those moments when it seeps through the cracks of the walls and  gets into my heart...I'm ready for the dam to burst.Overwhelm me.Pursue me.Guide me. Lead me on this grand adventure. I KNOW you have great plans for me, you've told me so! I'm waiting,ready for action. Like a solder, in full gear, ready to rush the field,ever so anxious and excited (and a bit nervous...and possibly...well ok, definitely frustrated----at the waiting,wasting time,not seeing the preparation that was taking place...feeling kinda bored,lonely,forgotten,useless...). Waiting for that "GO".

But you know best. I'll enjoy my rest.Continue to seek your secrets...there's so many!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'll wait for your guidance, while I dance in this part of our romance.....Love you!

*sigh*

I am frustrated with EVERY part of my life...except the people in it.

JOB:...what job?!
$....see above
Living situation...not the best
where I live...hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate it. did i mention hate hate hate hate hate it?
Church ...not enough.need real fellowship... ain't getting it
family/friends...I know they care,but  they are to far away,don't have resources to help

I am blessed...car,roof,food,bed,etc.

but what happened to "life abundant" anyway? tired of barely scrapping by...

El Shaddai--all sufficent one

Right now,I don't have a steady job.I feel this time is designed to strengthen my trust in you,Jehovah Jireh! And to help me realize I'm useful...even with out a job.

i feel like I'm wasting time,just living day to day with out a purpose...

Thoughts of a lonely daughter...

Father, I'm lonely.
I feel the walls that you (and I ) want to break down
but have a hard time finding the courage I know you have placed deep in me....
confidence in you...in my self... In you in me...in me in You!

I know you are drawing me into your presence through this lonely time....to strengthen me...renew me...all in your presence...

I have ideas of whats holding me back from running into your loving arms...

fear of rejection...I know you created me, I know you love me...I know you have plans for me (although, I only have a very small inkling what they entail,and seemingly nothing to proceed) , I know all this...but I guess I see my self like my coffee cups ...I have several... EVEN THOUGH I've purchased *most of* them,chose *most of*them off the shelf.,and each serves a purpose *albeit,the same purpose*, I still have my favorites. The ones I use most. The ones that are the style I prefer. The ones I would be "more sad" about breaking/losing. There are also the ones that I have that are practical and pretty,but ...just not my preference. Ones I wouldn't miss as much...

Much like us humans.You bought us.You designed us. You chose us. We even have a common purpose...to Glorify you!  I guess I feel like a "practical and pretty" ,not a "favorite" vessel.

I don't see my worth. I guess I'm afraid if I don't see it, others don't ,and will reject me as "worthless". Therefore,I save them the trouble and do it for them.

...Show me that I'm worth something? I know I am in my head,just need to get it into my heart and spirit...

also, with out having a definite purpose...a clear defined vision...a goal... it just seems I'm living day to day and just existing...and adds to the "worthless" thing....

also...some times I wonder If I really know what I'm doing?! I mean, I believe 100% in the stuff I've been trained in and shown, but it's kinda like a baby bird...am I really ready to be pushed outta the nest and forced to fly? I feel like I need some side by side training...not necessarily spoon fed again...just some one to remind me I'm not in this alone...

And I know I'm not...YOU,gracious one, have coveted to never leave me...and you are faithful,through and through...

Goodnight,
I love you!

Matt 7:7

 

Daddy, I'm thankful for your faithfulness. You said ASK,AND I SHALL RECEIVE,SEEK,AND I SHALL FIND,KNOCK AND IT SHALL BE OPENED ...and I believe.




Lord,I love and am eternally grateful for your grace,provision,and protection.However, I feel "stuck".
Not happy . Frustrated.

I come as your daughter,telling my dreams to my Father!

I dream of

• stability in a job... some what predictable hours,and pay. So I can tithe,budget,sow,save,splurge.
• a place of my "own"... to decorate how I wish,organize how I wish.
• someone...connect with,share life with,challenges,joy,questions,experiences...
• opportunities...to get out of my box,and to reach the ends of the Earth with your amazing love.
• Visions... teaching the littlest warriors about your ways...

I need direction. You've brought me to a very open,transient place right now...Its like you dropped me in a meadow....all around all I can see is grass land and wildflowers,and wheat. I don't know which way to go...

King James Bible  Jude 1:2
Mercy unto you, and peace, and love, be multiplied.