Guidance and dance...part of romance!

• First off, I love you. Happy Valentines, Sweet Lover of my soul!
• Second...I almost hate to ask...can I have more of those "HE REALLY REALLY REALLY LOVES...ME?!!!!?????!!!!!" moments? Please??? I know they are there...and that me being human sometimes *more often than not* I miss them. Make me more sensitive to your spirit. Your "sweet nothings",your guidance, your warnings...everything. 
• I know you love me ...in my head. I love those moments when it seeps through the cracks of the walls and  gets into my heart...I'm ready for the dam to burst.Overwhelm me.Pursue me.Guide me. Lead me on this grand adventure. I KNOW you have great plans for me, you've told me so! I'm waiting,ready for action. Like a solder, in full gear, ready to rush the field,ever so anxious and excited (and a bit nervous...and possibly...well ok, definitely frustrated----at the waiting,wasting time,not seeing the preparation that was taking place...feeling kinda bored,lonely,forgotten,useless...). Waiting for that "GO".

But you know best. I'll enjoy my rest.Continue to seek your secrets...there's so many!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'll wait for your guidance, while I dance in this part of our romance.....Love you!

*sigh*

I am frustrated with EVERY part of my life...except the people in it.

JOB:...what job?!
$....see above
Living situation...not the best
where I live...hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate it. did i mention hate hate hate hate hate it?
Church ...not enough.need real fellowship... ain't getting it
family/friends...I know they care,but  they are to far away,don't have resources to help

I am blessed...car,roof,food,bed,etc.

but what happened to "life abundant" anyway? tired of barely scrapping by...